Silencing Me With My Own Autism

Quote: I used to think I could change the world. I thought if I put enough words out there, if I put myself out there and let people see me for who I really am, if I did enough things that other people value . . . if I worked hard enough, people would see and change their mind and I could finally be part of the group, part of the world, one of “us.”

Special Needs Mom – A Look Inside

By April Vernon

SPECIAL NEEDS MOMS – A Look Inside

You may think us “special moms” have it pretty rough.
We have no choice. We just manage life when things get really tough.
We’ve made it through the days we thought we’d never make it through.
We’ve even impressed our own selves with all that we can do.

We’ve gained patience beyond measure, love we never dreamed of giving.
We worry about the future but know this “special” life’s worth living.
We have had days and hurt sometimes, but we hold our heads up high.
We feel joy and pride and thankfulness more often than we cry.

For our kids we aren’t just supermoms. No, we do so much more.
We are cheerleaders, nurses and therapists who don’t walk out the door.
We handle rude remarks and unkind stares with dignity and grace.
Even though the pain they bring cannot be erased.

Therapies and treatment routes are a lot for us to digest.
We don’t know what the future holds but give our kids our best.
None of us can be replaced, so we don’t get many breaks.
It wears us out, but to help our kids, we’ll do whatever it takes.

We are selfless, not by choice, you see. Our kids just have more needs.
We’re not out to change the world, but want to plant some seeds.
We want our kids accepted. That really is our aim.
When we look at them we just see kids. We hope you’ll do the same.

~ April Vernon

Mungkin Anda berpikir, ibu-ibu spesial seperti kami, hidupnya pasti susah
Tapi kami tidak punya pilihan, kami jalani saja hidup ini apa adanya
Ternyata kami berhasil melewati hari-hari yang kami kira tidak dapat kami lewati
Bahkan kadang kami heran dan bangga akan ‘prestasi’ kami sendiri

Kami belajar kesabaran diluar batas, dengan cinta yg tidak pernah kami bayangkan dapat kami berikan
Kami mengkhawatirkan masa depan tapi kami tahu bahwa kehidupan spesial ini juga perlu dinikmati
Terkadang kami melewati hari yang buruk dan sedih, tapi kami tegakkan kepala
Kami jauh lebih sering merasakan syukur dan bangga, dibandingkan mengeluarkan tetesan airmata

Bagi anak-anak kami, kami bukan hanya ibu yang super, kami jauh lebih dari itu
Kami penyemangat, perawat, dan terapis yang tidak pernah menutup pintu
Kami menelan kata-kata kasar dan pandangan tak ramah dengan dewasa
Walaupun rasa sakit yg ditimbulkan oleh kata-kata dan pandangan itu, tak akan pernah sirna

Terapi demi terapi sungguh sulit utk kami jalani sebetulnya
Kami tak tahu apa yang akan terjadi di masa depan, tapi kami berusaha sekuat yang kami bisa
Tidak ada yang bisa menggantikan kami, jadi kami tidak mendapatkan banyak waktu luang
Kami lelah, luar biasa, tapi untuk membantu anak-anak kami, kami tumpahkan semua kasih sayang

Kami tidak lagi bisa egois, bukan karena kami mulia, hanya saja anak kami memiliki lebih banyak kebutuhan
Kami tidak ingin merubah dunia, kami hanya ingin menanam kebaikan
Kami ingin anak kami di terima, itu saja yg kami inginkan
Ketika kami melihat mereka, kami hanya melihat anak-anak. Semoga itu pula yang anda lakukan.

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